Me Myself and I

I’ve finished reading a novel actually, but for me, the story just didn’t catch my attention makes me couldn’t share what I thought about it. and If I insist to write the review, It will consist of all my boringness perspective about it and I think it won’t make you guys read the review till the very end.

Let’s fill this week's page with my story ehew. As a matter of fact, I’m the kind of person who will read my own diary sooner or later and I’m sure I’ll read this diary someday. I’ve been applying for the real job for the first time this week, I certainly hope it will end with them calling me for the interview then officialy become a part of them. I designed the CV by myself, the color is a combination between navy, grey, and gold. I wrote about my real experience during working as a part-time translator and tutor even though I know it doesn’t relate with the job I applied for, I apply for the public relation in one of PT. in the city near my sister’s home. 

I got the information from my brother, he recommends me to try it during finishing my thesis.

For my thesis, it works slower than I could ever imagine my supervisor rarely answer my email and I still waiting peacefully. Better to wait than being grumpy right? Ahahah. I proud because I’ve done a seminar proposal examination while a number of my colleagues in my department still don’t even found the title for their thesis, but I attend the gathering of my former Islamic boarding school recently. I met friends who are in the same semester as me, they’ve done their thesis examination and I just suddenly become insecure because most of them are men.

 “How can men could finish their thesis while a woman like me still struggling with supervisor, instrument, etc ” 

the easiest answer is they aren’t from my department they don’t have the obligation for doing an internship program for two months and don’t have two supervisors who had different perspective through your thesis sometimes.

During the gathering, I also met my old friend who I’m in love with or I just admire him I don’t even understand my own feeling.  He came late, but gladly we still have some boring conversation. He sat next to me and we talk nothing but jokes. I know he had a girlfriend and it’s okay, I just love him sometimes not all the time. We rarely in touch both virtually or directly and I’m glad for it because my life itself already been suffered without the existence of love then how can it be with love? I got plenty of men to chat with without involving my feeling, but it won’t feel the same way if he did it to me. 

Riding a motorcycle on my own took him by surprise, he doesn’t even trust me to did that and I never told him that I can ride a motorcycle as I said we rarely been in touch.  We also talk about the best age for marriage and some random stuff. Till finally, we got home. I text him after I arrived to asked did he already arrived at his home safely and I left his message without an answer at the end. For me, better that way since I knew he had a girlfriend on him and I also need to make sure I won’t fall for him.